HAPPY SUMMER…
i talk about wanting a summer romance, but with who? who the fuck is out there that would want a romance with me? i dont really help because i tend to like the ones that already have girlfriends or live at least 20 minutes away…
i wanna waste time with someone, i wanna watch the sun set at the lake or laugh with my parents, or even just sit at the rope swing and watch the stars (even though im so drunk that i cant keep my eyes open). i dont wanna have to worry about stopping things before they go to far but having confidence that who im with wont expect to much from me cause they know me. i wanna text someone and not worry why they dont text me back or maybe have them text me first, shocking i know. i wanna sleep next to someone and just be comforted by the warmth of their body, and i wanna sneak out of my house and just drive around with nothing to do but talk. i want every kiss to mean something, i want every touch to make us that much closer. basically i want to be a romance novel, but isnt that want im supposed to want. doesnt everybody want something they know they cant have? i want romance, it isnt gonna happen. i want to make-out with someone and not be drunk, probably not gonna happen. i want evan, he has a girlfriend (and it isnt gonna happen). i want matt, he is in switzerland. i want love, doesnt everybody? so now what… i dont think their is really anyway i can speed this process up, i cant force someone to fall in love with me and i cant make people break up with their girlfriends. which brings me back to the beginning, i want a summer romance, but that doesnt mean im going to get what i want.
